NUMB!!!

As emotionless and expressionless state of being the word is associated with, it is a feeling altogether - quite rightly of its own.

There are highs and there are lows and somewhere in between the two is the transition - a state where this four letter word stands tall, with its feet apart, hands at the waist, and stares down at you with it's lifeless eyes. It needn't push or scare away any emotion wanting to peek out to the surface, it's presence makes them all to simply not be there!

I contemplate - Is it the vestige of the night before - witnessing the deliriousness that life puts your very loved ones through? Or are you identifying with it as something of your own!

Numb - your mind, Numb - your soul.
Numbness devouring the shimmer of your eyes
Numbness - like the eternal dark hole!
No wait!!! Numb - I don't want to be no more!

A flash and a blink later I say - B'bye Pink Floyd! Led Zep - Here I come!

Random Rhymes

No one knows what the future holds..

Maybe the gems, the pearls, the diamonds or the golds..

Let the mystery reveal itself before your eyes....the puzzle of the pictures - we call life

Yet another piece to comprehend each day...each one seeks a place that fits the perfect way

Its all there before your eyes - the colors, the hues, the darks and the lights

you place each one - each day and each night

Time passes by and slowly it all begins to comes through....

As it is being done, a beautiful image is unfolding back at you!

Then you realize why it took so long

and why didn’t it fit it in when it had all been there all along...

VOTE!!!

Election season around the corner, another reason to rejoice - yep, another holiday!! :P

There, however, is a far graver importance to it than just that.

I registered to vote finally and am feeling thrilled about it - a right the Constitution of India has empowered each of us with.

Each passing day, we live our lives with a hope of a better tomorrow - a good future for ourselves and our loved ones. We strive harder

each day to see ourselves coming nearer to that dream - pushing ourselves to our limits, and then again, a little more. What has

this got to do with voting you would ask? Well, I'd say, just about everything. Putting aside the facilities (roads, rail, water, electricity etc)

that we expect from the Government, the quality of life would also be a direct result of the kind of leader who comes to power. For,

they shall decide the taxes we will pay, they shall decide the education our kids will get, it will be their decision which will affect the

businesses and our jobs. WE cannot change the decisions they make , but WE can decide who will make those decisions.

This time, just for a change, Vote for all those things that you want to change...VOTE for change..VOTE for YOURSELF! :)

PS: Check this link to make an informed choice: http://www.mumbaivotes.com/

On a Lazy Saturday afternoon....

Hurray!!! It is FRIDAY!!!! I rejoice in the silence of the morning and I smile. The smile stays day long – untouched and unscathed by anything and everything around me. Work, travel, food, chats, coding, mail-forwarding and awaiting the clock to strike 5.30 – hey, I do the same things on each of the weekdays, but today I don’t mind staying back until 9.30, today, I smile if I miss the bus and am happy to get my share of adventure – yeah, the uncertainty of the BEST bus coming on time, barging through the doors of the right bus at the very sight of it, hustling through the crowds and what not - that’s quite an adrenaline rush!!! And finally, when the day is done, the PC is switched off and the card is swiped the last time for the week, I attain Nirvana as I head back home. For the weekend is here!!!

Last weekend was quite different though, not just because it was an extended one, but for the realization that dawned upon me. The much-awaited weekends in Mumbai are spent in lazing around on Saturday afternoons, wondering what to do in the evenings, going to the mall/shopping/having pizzas on Sunday. The common thing here is not just the activities – it’s the crowds everywhere. It makes up for the train travel absent in some blessed peoples lives on the weekdays and assures them that they have not been outcast – they still are Mumbaikars! It all too rushes before the eyes and before you know it, BANG! Its over!! And yet another long wait for until the next one…

Imagine this – you are walking bare-feet on the white sands, the subtle waves of the sea beckon you, you trudge over and wade through the waters – so clear that you see your feet and your reflection in it. The early morning sun is still lazy to wake up and come out – it is hidden behind its blue and white blankets of the clouds. Far, far away, to your left and to your right, there is NO ONE!! The tranquility in the air is enlivening as it enthralls your senses. The experience – Divine!

It was a marvelous discovery and a humbling realization that just beyond the precincts of this concrete jungle and its multitude faces – their artificial smiles, restless minds and worn-out feet from running in the rat race – there is place where you meet someone very very special – Your Self! And then you realize, you cannot ever attain Nirvana, for Nirvana is you.

3 days of death & 4 days to live

Life’s ironies are best understood or explained when one is put in such a situation and one doesn’t realize! It is then that all the logics that the mind has grown up believing in and all the practicality of thoughts that one moulds one’s life upon are simply banished by the same mind that nurtures them for so long – the mind that had failed to see the reality shinning right before it – the truth ,the light , the life! In my case, it was my own self.

Irony is that one word which tries to explain or justify all the mystical ways in which life works. Today, the word has shown me that there is no mystery to life – it just is!

And somehow I do not wonder…..

Am I dead or am I alive??

I had wanted to die before I could be alive and irony did just that and how! – I never realized!

Just Another Day In Paradise

I hear the bells toll away in a church nearby. I look at my watch and just while I am looking, I realize the futility of it. “Time here takes a backseat”, I say to myself.

I smile…and I walk on.

I hear my footsteps on the wet road. The air is cool and fragrant- it is intoxicating. The trees on either side of the road seem to agree with me, for their branches were swaying in affirmation to my thoughts. I pass by houses- radiant, bright, and vibrant with colours of red, purple, yellow, blue. It looks as if the rainbow has come down on the earth in the form of these houses. They are all reminiscent and so very alive with the era that made them. They seem eager to tell me stories of that era. I strain my eyes and ears. Neither do my eyes see anything, nor do my ears hear anything. Strangely enough, my heart experiences it. It is overwhelming. “How I wish I lived here...” I say to myself.

I smile…and I walk on.

I do not realize on which turn the road beneath my feet gave away to the vast expanse of white sand. I do not realize when the landscape around me gradually opened up to the ocean. I do not realize when the sun, hidden behind the clouds, slowly descended into the water.

Nevertheless, I do realize the presence of the One who created it all- this beauty, this nature, this serenity. That timeless moment, that enthralling beauty, that divine realization is forever to stay in my memory.

I go down on my knees and kiss the air as if I were kissing the hand of the One who created it. I whisper “Thank You” to the winds while looking up at the sky.

I smile…and I walk on.

The night falls. It begins to rain lightly. I soak in the rain- not literally, but figuratively. I soak in the sound of the rain- the beautiful music it creates when it falls on the roof above, the tress around and the ground below. I soak in its sweet fragrance- the fragrance the earth emanates as if it were expressing gratitude to the sky. I soak in its sights- and the beauty it creates around me. “Oh yes!” I say to myself. My friend has rightfully said-Heaven is Green.

I smile…and I cannot walk away from this.

Far, far away in the distance, I see a lighthouse. I have always seen it as a symbol of hope and faith with its light spreading across miles- on both land and sea. For travelers and seekers lost in search of their destinies and quests, this “Tower of Illumination” guides them along. However, its light is never fixed in one direction. It goes around and comes back, for there are people everywhere who need its light to move on.

It strikes me then. I cannot stay here forever. I must go back to move on- move on to bigger and better things in life. The lighthouse showed me the path to my “Stairway to Heaven” in a better light- the way I never saw before. “I will come back again”, I say to myself.

I smile…and I walk on…

LOGIC 1 OR LOGIC 0 ?

It is really funny the way life teaches you its lessons. It is so ironical that once “impossible situations” now seem like nothing-nothing that required so much of worrying. We have faced situations when we thought this was it, it was the end.

But the fact that you are reading this blog right now, with a smile on your face, reminiscing of those times can’t be a better proof of what I am saying here.

If you don’t believe me, check your heart, its still beating. Better still, look yourself in the mirror- yeah! That’s the smile I am talking about.

Today, life taught me an interesting lesson-something that I been studying about for the last six years, but never realized it.

Being a student of digital electronics, I would explain it in the technical jargon.
The world of digital electronics lies only on this basic concept- Logic 1 & Logic 0.
The most universal explanation of it would be a switch. It can either be ON (Logic 1).
Or it can be OFF (Logic 0). No two ways about it. No middle path exists there.

So, you can either be happy or sad. You can either be sane or mad! (Hey, it rhymes!).
You can be alive or dead. The choice is YOURS. It is what you decide to choose.

Today, I realized that when facing life or rather living life, it is I who decide whether to be happy or not. Whatever circumstances life may show or to wherever it may lead me, the decision to be happy or cringe about it is entirely mine. And know what, I even realized today that it is easier to smile through it. For I was cribbing over something that I have no control over. This thought immediately made me realize my foolishness, and pop came the grin – out of nowhere!

Like they say: “The world is your sky,

Just spread your wings and fly”.