Irony is that one word which tries to explain or justify all the mystical ways in which life works. Today, the word has shown me that there is no mystery to life – it just is!
And somehow I do not wonder…..
Am I dead or am I alive??
I had wanted to die before I could be alive and irony did just that and how! – I never realized!
I hear the bells toll away in a church nearby. I look at my watch and just while I am looking, I realize the futility of it. “Time here takes a backseat”, I say to myself.
I smile…and I walk on.
I hear my footsteps on the wet road. The air is cool and fragrant- it is intoxicating. The trees on either side of the road seem to agree with me, for their branches were swaying in affirmation to my thoughts. I pass by houses- radiant, bright, and vibrant with colours of red, purple, yellow, blue. It looks as if the rainbow has come down on the earth in the form of these houses. They are all reminiscent and so very alive with the era that made them. They seem eager to tell me stories of that era. I strain my eyes and ears. Neither do my eyes see anything, nor do my ears hear anything. Strangely enough, my heart experiences it. It is overwhelming. “How I wish I lived here...” I say to myself.
I smile…and I walk on.
I do not realize on which turn the road beneath my feet gave away to the vast expanse of white sand. I do not realize when the landscape around me gradually opened up to the ocean. I do not realize when the sun, hidden behind the clouds, slowly descended into the water.
Nevertheless, I do realize the presence of the One who created it all- this beauty, this nature, this serenity. That timeless moment, that enthralling beauty, that divine realization is forever to stay in my memory.
I go down on my knees and kiss the air as if I were kissing the hand of the One who created it. I whisper “Thank You” to the winds while looking up at the sky.
I smile…and I walk on.
The night falls. It begins to rain lightly. I soak in the rain- not literally, but figuratively. I soak in the sound of the rain- the beautiful music it creates when it falls on the roof above, the tress around and the ground below. I soak in its sweet fragrance- the fragrance the earth emanates as if it were expressing gratitude to the sky. I soak in its sights- and the beauty it creates around me. “Oh yes!” I say to myself. My friend has rightfully said-Heaven is Green.
I smile…and I cannot walk away from this.
Far, far away in the distance, I see a lighthouse. I have always seen it as a symbol of hope and faith with its light spreading across miles- on both land and sea. For travelers and seekers lost in search of their destinies and quests, this “
It strikes me then. I cannot stay here forever. I must go back to move on- move on to bigger and better things in life. The lighthouse showed me the path to my “Stairway to Heaven” in a better light- the way I never saw before. “I will come back again”, I say to myself.
I smile…and I walk on…
It is really funny the way life teaches you its lessons. It is so ironical that once “impossible situations” now seem like nothing-nothing that required so much of worrying. We have faced situations when we thought this was it, it was the end.
But the fact that you are reading this blog right now, with a smile on your face, reminiscing of those times can’t be a better proof of what I am saying here.
If you don’t believe me, check your heart, its still beating. Better still, look yourself in the mirror- yeah! That’s the smile I am talking about.
Today, life taught me an interesting lesson-something that I been studying about for the last six years, but never realized it.
Being a student of digital electronics, I would explain it in the technical jargon.
The world of digital electronics lies only on this basic concept- Logic 1 & Logic 0.
The most universal explanation of it would be a switch. It can either be ON (Logic 1).
Or it can be OFF (Logic 0). No two ways about it. No middle path exists there.
So, you can either be happy or sad. You can either be sane or mad! (Hey, it rhymes!).
You can be alive or dead. The choice is YOURS. It is what you decide to choose.
Today, I realized that when facing life or rather living life, it is I who decide whether to be happy or not. Whatever circumstances life may show or to wherever it may lead me, the decision to be happy or cringe about it is entirely mine. And know what, I even realized today that it is easier to smile through it. For I was cribbing over something that I have no control over. This thought immediately made me realize my foolishness, and pop came the grin – out of nowhere!
Like they say: “The world is your sky,
Just spread your wings and fly”.
“HAPPY DAYS”
Even as I get down to write this, my pencil moving across the paper, I realize that the clock is ticking away. Through seconds, minutes and hours, time will fly by just as it has all my life- especially the last two years.
I try to pen or rather “pencil down” my unexpressed feelings.
I had never ever imagined that engineering would bring out this creative aspect of mine- writing. So, I thought, what better way to pay tribute to engineering than by writing about it.
Ah! I cannot write any more. Every single word evokes the same feelings in me as it does in you…
Time keeps ticking away. The sun rises and sets everyday. Watching a sunset is a beautiful feeling, isn’t it? The cool breeze blowing over you face. The warmth in your feet as you walk bare-foot on the sand. And then, getting your feet wet as you trudge
over to the sea to bid a final farewell to the sun. The last rays of the sun turning the sky orange- promising you that it will be there the next day and the day after –for eternity.
Yet, at the same beach, the sea washes away the imprints made on the sand. The sand trickles away from your fingers, no matter how hard you try to hold on, just like time.
“Let there be Light!”
….Thus spoke the Lord and the Earth was created-created out of nothing.
Many a times, there have been instances in my life when I have experienced an emptiness,a void. Looking back in retrospection at all those times, I have realized that the experience has just made me grow as a person. And it has always brought out the best of me-out of nothing.
This blog is an expression of the experience called void. You will find something new written here whenever life will make me stop and think for a while. Your appreciation and criticism are welcome with arms wide open. So do drop in a comment.
Let there be light…..
